3:22am For the first time in my life, i can finally say i am exhausted and have been astray from things for sometime now. I'm the type who never fears and have things in control (most of the time at least). I usually know my capabilities and am in full confidence to what needs to be done.
I'm taking this next shut-eye as the end of my worries and the many thoughts that travel my mind in a round-about that experiences the weekday 5pm jam. By the morning i arise, i will be back to my earlier self again. Cheery, smiling, shows no lack of confidence and places matters into my own hands with full grasp.
I am inspired by God that is. I haven't had a good dose of Him in a fair amount of time. Mostly because i always feel tired. The battles faced ,may seem minute to some, but little does one know about myself. Same goes to others. You can really never judge a book by its cover.
Just went on my rss feed and listened to today's "our daily bread" topic which speaks about
"The Great Comeback http://tinyurl.com/3zdw6rr "
I used to listen to their sharing daily before i retire, and since weeks to more than a month i believe, i had ignored it completely. Essentially, this spoke to me about how even when you think you've done it all, and God has left you, little do you know that when you believe and trust Him, you can do anything!
May it be your financial status, marriage, work relations, family, sickness or even more relative to myself in the current state - studies. He can pull you through and even more make you fly sky high till you're untouchable if only you let Him.
From my own experiences, that has happened. I am in my 4thyear of med school and to get thus far, it is by His works. Let me share a little.
From my high school days, it was a miracle for me to score high distinctions and enter college just missing two more subjects from a perfect 12/12 A's. Why so? This because i did all my exams except two in the hospital due to severe vomiting and diarrhea ( i believe medically, acutie viral gastroenteritis ). I literally could not even stand up when i went for my exams. Not to mention, up till the minuted before each paper, i had still many (even till more than a quarter of the syllabus) untouched chapters for subjects such as chemistry, biology, physics, additional mathematics, bahasa malaysia, history and etc.
And he pulled me through.
My college results were nowhere near the required entree to med school at melbourne university which was one of the two universities i applied to. From trinity college foundation studies i was required to achieve a 98% raw score. At the end of it, i wasn't accepted for either uni's because there were limited seats available for those who did my course and applied for medicine.
I only gained entry into imu (international medical university) 2 weeks prior to the course starting based on an interview and being informed i got a place the following day. Praise the Lord because i applied for this university and one other of which i was months late after the applications had closed. Best part is, i got into both!
Now if i were to share more, this post would become a thesis for my post-grad. But let me end here from my long-winded writings and say through Christ, you can overcome anything; through Christ, from when i awake later, i will overcome it all! AMEN!
In life we just need that little re-lighting of our candles which had blown out by the passing wind (distractions and dissatisfactions). With God, Jesus, he can be like the people who place their hands around the candle to prevent it from being blown out.
I hope you can get up from that slum or are encouraged to seek Him first in all things just as i was. As i always tell the many who never ever believe me and think i'm some hardcore i don't know what, -
~ If it were by my own strength, i would have failed;
with him, i am who i am. ~
And always remember:
God bless you and your loved ones!
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